I ate a Timbit today. I know- big whoop right? It is a big whoop to me.
This time last year, I NEVER would have eaten that Timbit. I didn’t eat Timbits. I didn’t stray from my meal plan- not one cheat in 12 weeks.
I was focused. I was disciplined. I was committed.
Lately, I’ve been REALLY loose with my eating! I have not said “no” to many items of food and it is really bugging me!
Okay, I’m going to be really honest here (not that I’m not always honest…. actually sometimes I might be too honest- my friend told me today how horrified she was that I admitted to an urinary track infection during my last post lol)
Okay, so I’m going to be honest- I’ve been really struggling lately. I’ve been struggling with my moods, exercise, eating, everything. January kicked the crap out of me. January I had a tough time writing this blog. It wasn’t a lack of recipes- my photo stream is full of pictures of clean recipes I had tried.

Those are all pictures of recipes I have tried but haven’t blogged about!
I just felt like I had nothing to say- all I wanted to talk blog about was how I was in a funk. I wrote a few posts about my January blues but I didn’t want this blog to turn into a personal whinefest. I want I Choose Happy to be well– happy! So I took a weekend to myself. I worked out and ate really good food. I spent a lot of time alone (which is challenging to do when you are a parent!) I hung out with Boyd and we took a selfie:

I felt different. I finally felt I got my groove back this weekend. I could feel it!
I thought I was in the clear. I thought it would be smooth sailing but then I ate a Timbit at a workshop I was at today. That Timbit is a symbol that I haven’t really committed to “eating clean in 2015”. I’m really struggling to recapture that same focus, discipline and commitment I had last year. Maybe it’s like “lighting in a bottle”- last year was special. I am finding that “second time ISN’T the charm”! But you know, that’s okay.
Sometimes I write what I NEED TO HEAR on this blog. This is what I need to hear: it’s okay to stumble. It’s okay to make a mistake- most learning happens when you make mistakes. I am going to learn from that Timbit! It sounds so stupid but that donut hole woke me up- I’m not going to achieve my goals by eating donuts! Also, anything worth having is usually really challenging to get! Sometimes I forget how challenging my weight loss process was last year- I think because I lost weight in such a short amount of time- I forget that there were times that were hard.
Now I know that it is time to recommit. It is time to set a goal and focus on it. It is time to practice discipline. I did it before and I will do it again. 🙂

Back to that Timbit. I know one of the reasons why I ate it– I wasn’t prepared. I didn’t pack enough snacks. Had I packed more snacks, I would have been more prepared to deal with the temptation. No wonder I ate that Sour Cream Glazed Timbit!
I did pack a great muffin today. It is a new recipe I tried yesterday. I am always looking for good muffin recipe- and this is another great recipe! For the Banana Oat Protein Muffins you will need:

1 2/3 cup oat bran (I got mine at Bulk Barn)
1 scoop vanilla protein powder (I used Progressives)
1 tablespoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon cinnamon
2 small or medium very ripe bananas, mashed
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
1/2 cup nonfat plain greek yogurt
2 large egg whites (don’t change this to whole eggs- from my research about using different flours- flourless recipes are finicky. You could really mess up the texture of the muffin by using whole eggs)
1 teaspoon vanilla

You can find the directions at The Ambitious Kitchen. These muffins are my husband approved, my kids approved and Boyd approved (he stole one off the counter- grrr!)

The muffins have great flavour and texture and contain 6 grams of protein!

I am feeling focused and committed and I know you guys will support me on my clean eating journey- you inspire me 🙂

Choose happy 🙂